Way Corp group(s) I was in
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About Me
Ah, to condense twenty-five years into twenty-five words of less, well, maybe not.
F. Scott said, “There are no second acts in American lives,” well, most folks know that to be a load of bull.
Let’s see I have been a failed Reverend, a successful publisher, a respected editor, and a pretty good M&A entrepreneur. The first my love, the second and third my passion and last a way to make money. That surely constitutes more than two acts and perhaps even a mini-series on Lifetime. Yuck!
The last twenty years I have mostly spend my working life starting small independent newspapers. Think alternative, irreverent, socially conscious free rags.
I have been married to a wonderful woman named Susan for nineteen years. We have lived around the world and for years called NYC our home.
My offices were 11 blocks from WTC on 9/11. My attorney was on the 85th floor of Tower Two. She tragically was never found.
(Susan and I would have been on the 85th floor of Tower Two at 8 am on 9/13. So we were some of the lucky ones.)
For a year after 9/11 we soldiered on but our hearts and our city were badly damaged.
Our dreams before the attack seemed unimportant when stacked beside the real awareness of how short life really is.
Someone once asked Billy Graham what he had found most amazing about life?
He answered, “Its brevity.”
So, we have become “drop outs.” We have traded Gucci for Wal-mart and Manhattan for a farm in rural Alabama. It is very much Green Acres. (Organic garden, 2 horses, 5 goats, 2 dogs, 4 chickens and I have no idea how many cats.) Susan has an earth-friendly store and greenhouse; I spend much of my time writing things that no one ever reads (except those who are kind enough to read my rants without thinking I have truly crossed the line into lunacy).
It has taken me the better part of the last twenty-five years to fully forgive myself (and some others) for my final days in The Way.
Of course finally finding a Russian doctor and a French psychiatrist I am fine, really. The doctor assured me, “Smoke, drink, enjoy, what’s it going to do kill you?” The frog intoning a motto of, “Wrong? There is no wrong!"
Ok, I’m kidding.
I am very happy to see so many people I once called friend here on this site and doing well.
If I have offend, hurt or betrayed any of you I am sorry and ask your forgiveness.
It is my wish to connect as best I can and share whatever I have with everyone here.
Typing this now I also ponder, what is the next act?
To all of you I say, I am okay. How are you friend?
Love to all,
B
“No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main.
If a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friend's or of thine own were: any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.”
John Donne
Music I Like
Charlie Parker
Billie Holiday
Ella Fitzgerald
Chet Baker
Dean Martin (Really he was great!)
Tony Bennett
Nat “King” Cole
Most songs by Johnny Mercer
The Beatles (of course)
The Rolling Stones
The Beach Boys (Pet Sounds)
The Chieftains
Van Morrison
Songs and Bands that should never be heard again!
Stairway to heaven
Muskrat Love (What was that all about!)
Ben
Anything Michael Jackson, Wings, Lite Rock, Hair bands and Rap (Why did they leave the C off of the spelling?) Well, maybe that song about, “Sipping on Gin and juice, with my mind on my money and my money on my mind.” I mean, really, it is so culturally relevant.
Now that I have started this list I know it is a fool’s errand.
Comments
Long time...very long time and it's good to see your face again. Be well and keep up the writing. You can find me in lots of places, here to start with.
Blessings and Peace to you,
GH
So many mems of you Billy. I think there was a good one in there somewhere!
Luv ya Billy...btw. working on a CD.
Let me first of all apologize for not getting back with you sooner. I was deeply touched by your comments, and I wrote an extensive response in the early a.m. a couple of nights ago. I was getting ready to attach some poetry, and somehow I hit the wrong key, and blip! All that I had typed disappeared from the screen. This has happened before, and it’s always so frustrating. It was too late, and I was too tired to start over again at the time. Here I am now. . . this time I’m typing out my comments to which I will attach the poetry, and I’ll cut and paste that entry into the comments on your webpage.
As I said, I was moved by your heartfelt comments, and I was reflecting upon the good old days all along The Way, I happened to think of a coffee house where we both shared. I’m not sure if it was in North Carolina or in Ohio specifically, but I do recall that I read some of my “stuff,” and you sang the blues. None of the particulars come to mind at this time other than that I recall it was a wonderfully warm occasion which I thought of as I read your words. As I thought about your passion for music and your appreciation of the blues as an art form, I thought you might appreciate this poem in light of your comments about my poetry. It is a poetic reflection inspired by recollections of a visit from my parents when I lived in Washington, DC, a couple of years before joining the Way Corps back in 1971. I have come to appreciate the poem and the fond memories that it evokes, but I have gained an even deeper appreciation and celebration of the blues, which I touched upon in greater depth through a multimedia presentation called “Just What Is the Blues” which was part of the African American literature classes I formerly taught at Otterbein College and elsewhere. So . . . here’s to you my long lost brother and fellow “wordsmith.” May you be blessed as you reflect with me.
“Quiet as it’s kept. . .”
Quiet as it’s kept, Daddy loved the blues.
I remember the time back in the day when Dad could still drive,
and drive he did most of the way, not the whole way, but divided in half,
stopping to spend the night in a motel in Pennsylvania
somewhere about halfway between Gary, Indiana and DC
“Ma-dear and Daddy” drove down to visit me one weekend over the 4th
and we went down to festivities off Constitution Avenue
in that “grassy as if it wanted wear” area near the Smithsonian.
Strolling like nomads in and out of blue and white striped tents,
seeking relief from the relentless blazing summer sun,
we sampled the chicken and rib tips and fresh squeezed lemonade
and finished off the feasting with a taste of the blues:
a folk festival of sorts, featuring local blues singers
and a quartet from Dad’s home state of Arkansas.
We followed the crowd into this one wide tan canvas expanse,
flaps raised and rolled up, wrapped all around the sides,
like a revival tent without the sawdust.
On the plywood stage covered with carpet remnants
in a rickety wooden folding chair sat old Flora.
She wasn’t blind but thick wire-rimmed glasses
magnified her dark orbs that closed like doll’s eyes
when she reared back her head and hollered.
Flora was good, but she wasn’t quite like Robert,
old Blind Robert that sang down in front of the Riggs Bank.
He was blind for sure(think he was born that way),
strumming and humming, and sliding that metal bar to up and down the guitar strings
to lure folk into the tent to taste that thick authentic down home sound.
Blind Robert show could sing. . . .
Wonder why so many good blues singers be blind?
Brother Ray and Stevie. . . Blind Lemon Jefferson,
Blind Willie McTell,
Blind Willie Johnson, Blind Blake n’nem;
All the Blind Boys, from Mississippi and Alabama,
All yall, I know yall see what it takes to show nuff sing the blues.
Of course, my Daddy got the same name as a famous blues
singer, Lonnie Johnson. I wonder what all that means, if anything.
While the brothers from Arkansas was playing and singing,
I’d glance over and catch Daddy nodding his head in agreement
or see him smiling or simply breathing a sigh,
like a tacit Amen or inner response that seemed to say,
“You got that right.”
We stood and watched and listened a good while
before we left and continued to stroll from tent to tent.
After a while, Daddy wanted to go back just one more time.
My Daddy show did love him some blues that time in DC.
Some say the blues is an acquired taste that you appreciate as you age
As I have mellowed in the autumn of the years, I have come to enjoy the blues too.
I just wish I could have shared this newfound fondness for blueness
with my father back in the day, in my younger boppin doowop days,
but I just couldn’t get into them down in the alley sad songs back then.
I just didn’t know why the blues always be so sad.
What did I know? What did I know?
Now I know it takes a whole lot of living and
a lot more loving and losing to appreciate the blues.
Like the Lady say,
You don’t know what love is
Until you’ve learned the meaning of the blues
Until you’ve loved a love you’ve had to lose
You don’t know what love is
Now I know just what Daddy meant when he nodded his head
and sighed and wanted to go back just one more time.
Quiet as it’s kept, my Daddy loved him some blues.
Lonnell E. Johnson 4-22-05
I also wanted to share another poem that I thought might bless you in light of the remarks you made about your mother who passed away not too long ago. I wrote the poem after my mother passed away in 2002, and she was preceded by father who fell asleep in 1996. I have shared it with others who have experience similar losses. Likewise, I trust that you will also be comforted by these words.
When My Father and Mother
When my father and my mother forsake me,
Then the LORD will take me up.
Psalm 27:10
When my father and mother have forsaken me
And have left behind a deep hole within my soul,
When I seem alone, then the Lord will take me up.
When I am without strength, the Lord will sustain me.
Though I am blessed, I still know moments that disrupt
When my father and mother have forsaken me.
I rise on wings of joy but sorrow surrounds me.
My flesh is weak and seems to prevail, though corrupt.
When I seem alone, then the Lord will take me up.
God sent His Word to strengthen and encourage me.
Time prepares the heart, but the end is still abrupt
When my father and mother have forsaken me.
When disappointments seem to unfold before me,
The thief comes only to distract and to interrupt.
When I seem alone, then the Lord will take me up.
Though I would reject it, I must taste the bitter cup,
But beyond death’s door, Christ prepared a place for me.
When my father and mother have forsaken me,
When I seem alone, then the Lord will take me up.
Lonnell E. Johnson
Hey, Good Brother, I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate you, even as you shared the same regarding your appreciation for me. There is a Spanish expression that I often use in instances where I try to say that I feel the same way in a “me too” kind of way. That is to say, “igualmente” or “es mutual”) I thank God that our paths crossed the first time and that we’ve reconnected at this time.
God bless,
Lonnell
BTW, blogs can now be seen on the main page. You have some good ones. They are sorted by most recent changes or posts. If you add to one it wil be seen on the main page along with most recently changed 10.
Sorry to hear about your losing both parents in recent years. That's tough, man. They were good salt of the earth people.
Glad to see you here!
God bless,
Cathy
I have enjoyed reading your blog.
love to you brother.
chris