travels

[Tim Plake]

in many ways I feel that I'm writing a "what I did on my summer vacation essay". I was at work the other day and thinking about this website. The Lord impressed on me a desire to write here in my blog the tail of my travels after separating from the Way Ministry.
I was given the decision to stay with the ministry or my wife( who had many questions that were not getting answered). Believe it or not this was a tough decision for me since all my adult life was spent as a part of the ministry. After much council from many friends and some other situations(the expectation of our second child) the decision was made that it was time to move on.
This caused no end of pain and hurt in my heart. All my goals and dreams seemed to be over. I was working two jobs, which meant i was working everyday from 4:00am till 7:00-8:00 pm . this went on for seven years and I found I hated the man I'd become.
I now had three children, two sons and a daughter, I had stopped communicating with my wife and we found less and less in common. My children lived in constant fear of the angry man they called their father.
When I wasn't working I either slept, read sci fi books, watched tv, or constantly yelled at everyone who truly loved me. I had packed up everything that remotely reminded me of the ministry in the attack because I hurt so much. I also got extremely drunk at every occasion I could find, which was easy when you befriend the world. To say I was lost is an understatement. I embraced the darkness with vigor because you can't see in the dark. But as much as I tried to forget I couldn't. I longed for the good ol' days, and missed all my friends so much!
well I've got things to do so this is it for now.
Bless
Tim